Last night we had a storm in Houston. It rained all night, large claps of thunder and the brilliant but scary lightening that filled my bedroom, is the thing I hate the most. The worst part of the entire night was when the electricity went out. This causes a huge problem because I can only breathe if I have my purchased oxygen. I am not as fortunate as you all are, and I say that because you take breathing for granted. The fact that you can breathe without the assistance of a Oxygen Concentrator. Although the storm was raging last night and all hell was breaking loose. I can relax, since the storm is over now!
The storm was violent, It was early, the sky was still very dark when the power went out. The loud whistle sound the Concentrator made startled me, out of my sleep. Time is everything at that moment because my machine has gone off, along with everything else in the house because of the weather. The forecast said a storm was making it’s way to Houston, well it arrived. Time is everything because as you know I am unable to breathe at that moment. As a matter of fact, I have exactly two to three minutes at most because of my situation, without feeling like I am about to collapse. Oh yeah, just in case you didn’t know. I have Sarcoidosis and Pulmonary Hypertension.
Sarcoidosis: Sarcoid, as I call it, is a lung disease. A abnormal growth of tiny inflammatory cells which can attack your body in many places. Such as the eyes, skin, lymph nodes, and of course the lungs. It is believed that Sarcoid is a result of the body’s immune system reacting to an unknown substance. So now the Pulmonary Hypertension is a whole another beast! Pulmonary hypertension has been stated as a life threatening condition. Followed by high blood pressure in the arteries that leads to the heart and lungs, simply put, it literally takes your very breath away. The arteries will become blocked causing great difficulty for the blood to flow. Because of this, it makes the heart weak, raises the blood pressure in the lungs and eventually heart failure.
Without any oxygen flowing through my body I must make my way to my portable tanks. The large heavy metal tanks that I now carry with me when I travel out the house. Dumb me, how dare I got to sleep knowing the storm is brewing and not have a tank next to my bed. I’m kicking myself right now. But I successfully manage to make it across the room, in the dark. But because I am a creature of habit, I can go right to the tank. Not having to go out to the garage which houses all of my portable tanks. I must hurry now because a minute has already gone. I struggle to get the Canular off, in order to transfer it, which can be very daunting at times. Something you never think of on a daily basis, unless put into a peculiar situation.
A Reminder Not To Panic: Keeping in mind to relax and not allowing myself to get worked up. My breathing is labored, because I had to actually walk. Note that I continuously have a certain amount of fear plaguing me at all times. The fear of being alone, the fear of lightening, the fact that God has not healed me, and the fear of dying. My thoughts are in a rampage. I ask God “Why has thou forsaken me? “You said you will give me the desires of my heart”. It is me Oh Lord, standing in great need. Hear my cry Jesus, this day. Whatever can I do without you?
After I managed to get the Canular off, I could sit for a moment to catch my breath. I thank God for allowing me to get to my tank and not pass out. This ordeal for me was like running up the bleachers at a high school, but I made it. To top it off the storm is over now! It was long after before the electricity came back on.
Lesson Learned: I learned a valuable lesson last night. Everything to has system, it is imperative to follow a well planned out strategy in many cases. But especially in our homes, when certain members have a disability. Example; the keys should always be placed in the same location at all times. Your Identification or credit cards should always be pace back into it’s proper spot. One or two oxygen tanks should always be at my bedside, just in case I have another situation like this ordeal I had this morning. Therefore I can just reached down and grab a tank. No panic, no fuss.
ENCOURAGE YOURSELF: God has giving you the power to weather the storms in your life. Whether it is mentally, physically, financially or an actual natural disaster remember God is in control. As the song says:
“Thought the storms keep raging in my life, and sometimes it’s hard to tell my night from day.
Still that hope that lies within is reassured, as I keep my eyes upon the distant shore; I know He’ll lead me safely to that Blessed place He has prepared.
But if the storms don’t cease and if the wind keeps on blowing, (in my life) My soul has been anchored in the Lord.
My Soul Has Been Anchored by Douglas Miller