How I Overcame Depression
With Joy in my heart, I am excited that I was able to get rid of depression and share my experience with a lot of people who may have been going through the same challenge as me.
How it started
Telling you the exact date of when I started battling with depression is difficult for me because I cannot tell exactly when it all began. However, I remember when I was little, people I know and do not know would walk up to me and ask why am I crying. I will simply tell them that I am not, and to the best of my knowledge then, that was the truth. My facial expression is mostly sad, especially when I am alone; I didn’t know the problem then, frankly, I never thought it was a problem.
Sweeping Dirt Under The Carpet
Growing up, I learned to put on a smiling face every time to avoid being asked the “silly” question. At first, it was difficult, but I learned to be cautious of myself, and it worked. The truth is, the solution I carved out was like sweeping dirt under the carpet. The problem was still there; then I switch to ensuring the people around me is happy; I make them laugh or comfortable as much as I can to draw attention away from me.- Confusing, isn’t it? Yes, I know… but it was the best I could come up with.
Then anger sets in, I had an anger issue, although as usual, I tried to suppress everything by ensuring everyone else is happy, but deep down, I was a wreck! I cry for about anything. I get angry with any slightest thing, and I was good at disguising these negative traits about me. People around see me as this happy young woman, and I made it easy for anyone to share their problems with me. However, the battle was getting tougher; negative thoughts were the order of the day. If I want to do anything, I will imagine the worse. It also affected my relationship; my negative feelings gave rise to trust issues, and it was difficult for my partner to up with me.
I Found The Light
I never knew what the problem was called until I was asked to write on depression and the dangers. As I make research, I started seeing similarities between people suffering from depression and me. Also, stories of young people committing suicides due to depression started popping up on social media. Then I knew something needs to be done; trying to sweep it under the carpet will not cut it for me. Trying to hide depression is like secretly keeping a timely bomb in your home just because you do not want people to tag you as a terrorist.
The breakthrough happened one evening, I was sitting on a couch chatting with some friends online, and I noticed darkness befalling me, my heart suddenly became heavy, and I was sad even though I was joking with friends online. Deep down I was in pains emotionally, and I needed to talk to someone at that moment.
The miracle happened; I was suddenly led in the spirit to start praising God. Friends, it was silly, there was no joy enough to sing and dance to my God. Nonetheless, I went offline, open the music app, and played one of the praises I have in my phone. I forced myself to dance, to praise God for who He is, and what He has done for me. A few minutes into the praise sessions, the Holy Spirit started flooding my head with the miracles God has been doing in my life, the growth I have experienced in my business, family, etc. Joy began springing up, and I continued to dance, but this time, I wasn’t forcing myself to sing along with the music or dance.
I was sweating profusely, but I never stopped dancing. Suddenly, I felt darkness leaving my body, and my heart became light. Oh, what a feeling! I am free!
After the miracle, it dawned on me that depression is a spirit- a dark spirit that is cast on anyone by the devil. I know science has reasons for depression, and some people will even tag me as crazy for thinking this way.
However, it is the truth. Depression is a spirit, showing you why you are not good enough or deserve to be happy. It makes you see reasons to leave this world. Here is the fact about suicide; it does not stop the pain, you are only passing it on to your loved ones and people who cherish your existence.
The devil is out to get the youths, and he is using the spirit of depression to cut short their lives, to imprison them from fulfilling God’s plan in their lives. Nevertheless, the good news is, you have the weapon to disarm the devil and all his agents from deciding your fate.
Praise is a weapon, it is not what you do casually in church, and you can use it to fight your battles. Praise worked for me, and it is still working for me today. Administer the ministry of praise today, and you will receive your miracle. More will be discussed on praise soon, and I know God will show up in your case.
No matter how hard it gets, you suicide is not an option- it is the lie of the devil to steer you away from your glorious destiny.
Also, it is important to be observant too. Depression is not written on the sufferers’ forehead. In fact, some of the most jovial people suffer depression, the laughter, smiles, and jokes are just to cover up the battle they are fighting inside. Help people, when they sum the courage to share with you what they are going through; it is not the time to make fun of them or to wave it off casually.
Lastly, there is power in praise-you may not feel like praying over the situation, but you can praise. When you praise God, the joy from within will energize you to pray. Have a glorious year!!!
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.